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I Am...A Christian, A Wife, A Friend, A Mother, A Nursing Student, A Neighbor, A Daughter, A Scrapbooker, A Quote Lover, A Collector, A Photographer, A Cheerleader, & a Memory Maker.

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

""Build me a son, O Lord, who will be strong enough to know when he is weak, and brave enough to face himself when he is afraid, one who will be proud and unbending in honest defeat, and humble and gentle in victory.""

I find myself getting caught up in my girls lives so easily...I am always telling Eric that I am a better girl momma and he is a better well all of them Daddy!  We have two amazing girls and two amazing sons.  Today I was touched by one of those precious moments that when you are a 12 year old boy...stuck right in the middle of his older sister's success, his brothers autism and brains,  and a 3 year old sister.... well these moments just don't happen often.   Although I know how important it is to try and find equal time for all of them, I also know that we are real!  Life is hectic and it is hard.  Recently, Eric had to opportunity to coach Morgan Tate's upcoming Baseball Season!  I cannot tell you the delight on his face when he found out who his coach was going to be!  Just a precious time between the two of them and it just thrilled my heart so that Eric was going to get to invest in Morgan's life in this way as well as other little boys just as he did when Kenzie was younger.  But today....that precious Blue-Eyed Blond Haired Boy stopped me dead in my tracks as he is almost 5'8, yep the third child of mine to outgrow me in height.
Out of all of my children I would have to say that Morgan is most like me!  He is emotional, caring, and he loves his family in a special way that I have not seen from many other kids his age. He takes death, leaving, and unexpected change and fills up with an emotion that I cant explain.  He is a tad bit insecure at times unless he knows he can get it perfect. (wonder who he gets that from?)  We don't have to tell him to get his homework done, he just does it.  We don't have to ask him to play with True Blue...he just does it.   He and his 3 year old sister have a bond that has truly amazed me. Mackenzie calls them a force to be reckoned with! LOL   Of course we have sibling rivalry, and fights, and they all get mad at each other.  That's typical....but there is something about the way Morgan shows his love to us.  Today out of the Blue this rough tough boy on the outside came up to me to give me a hug and said, "Mommy can you just hold me for a minute?"   Are you kidding me.....My heart about belted out of my chest!!!  Tears welled up inside of me and I saw his Daddy look over at us and grin as if he were proud of that.  I held onto that boy for an eternity right there in the kitchen!  He is beautiful....a magnificent reminder to me that God gave me another miracle.  While I do often times feel extremely guilty for him having to live in Mason's shadow for most of his life, I am proud of the athlete he is becoming, proud of the friendships he is making and so so proud of the kindness he shows.  Don't get me wrong we have our challenges and my title says it all.  Morgan Tate touched my heart today and I am just praying for him this week that God will continue to build that relationship between us.  I never thought I had it in me to love one child like I did, but to love four....where I feel like my heart is truly walking around outside my body!  All I can say is Thank you God again for finding me worthy of being his mother and for giving me a magnificent kid to raise up for you Lord!  Until next time...I hope you can find the time to Ponder a Thought or Two of Your Own!  Bless you all!



This is one of those emotions caught when he fouled out of a game and was just devastated!  He plays with all heart and is simply amazing!!! 
This picture is of Morgan and His Band Teacher!  Not only is doing great in band, but he is playing piano as well as sports and this makes me very happy!  :) 

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

WHEN?


WHEN DID IT HAPPEN?
I WAS WITH YOU ALL DAY AND NEVER SAW IT, BUT
YEARS LATER WHEN I LOOKED AT THIS PICTURE
ON MY WALL, THERE IT WAS.  I'VE BEEN WATCHING FOR IT - EXCPECTING
IT REALLY.  THERE ARE THOSE MOMENTS IN EVERY CHILD'S
LIFE WHEN YOU SEE THE FUTURE - THAT CHANGE FROM ONE STAGE IN LIFE
TO ANOTHER NOT MEASURED BY CALENDAR DAYS. 
SO WHEN I LOOKED INTO YOUR FACE GAZING BACK
AT ME ON THE WALL, I WAS STRUCK BY THE YOUNG LADY
I SAW EMERGING THERE! PERHAPS ENOUGH OF THE
LITTLE GIRL REMAINS TO DISGUISE IT IN PERSON, BUT IT IS
APPARENT TO ME IN THIS PICTURE.  I KNEW IT WOULD
HAPPEN SOON.....I JUST DIDN'T KNOW
WHEN!