Wow has this been a season of my life like none other! Nursing school...a severe flair in Mason's autism, realizing that the pressure that is put upon Morgan Tate (Mason's brother who is one year younger than he) is just more than that precious child can handle! There have been times in the last few months when I seriously thought I could just start running and running and never come back! Doesn't sound like me at all....especially if you know how very thankful I am for the 4 precious lives God gave me! But even so there are seasons in our lives when we just don't think we can go on. I was truly at the end of my rope....on my knees...searching through every note, old bible, old prayer journals for hours and hours when I finally came upon it! God isn't asking much of me...In the midst of this season that I call heavy....he is simply telling me to "Just love them!" If I can just love these precious gifts with all that I am...and that is a lot...then he will take care of the rest! And indeed he has fulfilled me with a love and an overwhelming presence of his guidance. I was seeking in all the wrong places...the Internet for sources, doctors, friends who have no clue what it is like to have a special needs child, when all I had to do was ask him! God has a funny sense of humour to me in the fact that I am sure he is just sitting up there saying...Dear Child...It is right in front of your face! He is the only answer! He is the only way to lift the burden! He is enough!
